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Another Good Day

Added another 1250 words and finished another chapter. The novel will still come out short despite adding in the new chapter but I’m not bothered. It’s not going to be that short and it’ll be easy enough to bulk up things later with tiny bits of description and sub-plot across the whole book.

Tomorrow I likely won’t write as there is a general strike happening here against all the cuts going on and on Thursday I have a morning full of errands. Depending on how Friday goes, you may see me here. If not… until Monday!

 
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Posted by on September 25, 2012 in Am Writing

 

Oh No! I’m Telling not Showing!

Wrote just over 1300 words this morning. The story went in a different direction than I expected but that seems to be par for the course with this novel. I’m not sure why it goes off in unexpected directions. It’s not like the character takes over, which seems to happen to a lot of other writers. It’s more like my subconscious my muse has a clearer idea of what will produce a strong story than my conscious mind has I have.

What interests me with this book is the amount of summary I’m doing in it. It’s not a case of telling instead of showing. It’s the mindset of the character that drives the tendency for glossing over events. She sees her life as a series of dull daily necessities punctuated by the occasional interesting encounter or action. Describing her day to day actions in detail, therefore, wouldn’t work. Since she doesn’t care about the details, I can’t either. She interacts with people because she has to, not because she wants to, so encounters and conversations get blurred together into a single sensation instead of drawn out episodes. She’s a very introverted person, and so much of the story happens inside her head.

This of course makes writing the novel a bit of a challenge. How much is too much summary and when do I spend too much time inside her head and not enough time with those around her? I think I’m achieving a good balance, but I’ll know for sure once I have the whole thing written and my first readers get their hands on it. If they don’t fall out of the story, I will have achieved a good balance. If they continually drop the thread of the novel, then something isn’t working and I’ll know I need to make some changes.

And just because I’m feeling generous today, here’s a brief sample of what I mean by Emily’s way of interacting with the world…

The next morning, she didn’t go see Ted, nor over the next few days. If the Highest Masters could monitor her, better to be a model citizen without any interest in anything outside the town. Instead, she helped with more production loading, went to Temple every day and tried to have fun doing what every other teenager in town did, hanging out in the bathhouse or the main square. Although she did her best to care about the lives of others her age, she found herself spending most of her time wishing that she was back in her garden restoring it to its former glory, or in the Admission Center discussing her experiments with Ted. But no, to avoid suspicion she needed to act like a normal teen, no matter how boring it was.

Her change in behavior had the added bonus of thawing the Mayor’s attitude toward her. Even though the air within the Temple made her sick, Emily did her best to put up with it, and with the Mayor’s devotion. Few people Emily’s age went to Temple weekly, let alone every day, so the Mayor latched onto Emily like a lung infection in the rainy season. No matter what Emily did from now on, she doubted she would ever be able to get rid of the woman.

After a week of being barely able to breathe, Emily decided it was time to change things in the Temple. She took with her a large bouquet of roses, blue ropes of small flowers drooping off long vines that reminded Emily of the stream behind her house, or of breezes made solid. The vase she used was tall and thin but even so the roses hung down below the base of the vase, enhancing the sense of flow. She arrived at the Temple before anyone else and took the vase up to the front of the building where the statue of the First Master looked down upon everyone. Placing the vase on an empty ledge behind the statue, she draped the roses on either side of him, making sure that none of them actually touched him. She didn’t want to risk offending the Mayor somehow, but she really needed to do something to clear the air, or she would get lung rot and then be unable to help anyone. She was surprised that none of the regular devotees had come down with anything nasty up until now.

When the Mayor arrived, Emily was already seated in her pew, breathing deeply and silently encouraging the roses to clear the dampness from the air. Out of the corner of her eye, she saw the Mayor stop in her tracks and put her hands on her hips in a gesture that Emily recognized as the beginning of a complaint. But then the woman breathed, then breathed again this time more deeply. Emily looked up to gauge the Mayor’s reaction. A smile had spread across her face and she dropped her hands to her sides.

“Those are lovely, Emily,” she said inhaling the soft aroma of the delicate blossoms. “It’s nice to see you sharing the results of all that work you’ve put in. I must say that it adds a certain level of dignity to the First Master, as if even the roses strive to touch him and receive his blessing. Look at the way they mimic the postures of the petitioners.”

Emily hadn’t noticed the unconscious echo that she’d created and she squashed a desire to run up to the altar and rip the roses down. Her roses didn’t worship the First Master any more than she did. Instead, she twisted the image in her head, seeing the First Master a block between her roses and the people who needed them, the people who needed her. She smiled back at the Mayor but said nothing. Let the woman believe Emily a devote follower. It cost her nothing and who knew what it could gain her in the future?

 
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Posted by on September 24, 2012 in Am Writing

 

Peeling Back the Fear

I own a pack of Tarot-like cards, but instead of the usual symbols and drawings, each card has a different fairy on it. They are designed by the hugely talented Brian Froud and are stunningly beautiful, even the ugly and frightening ones are gorgeous.

One card in particular, called The Soul Shrinker (fear), that despite being a watercolor painting, manages to horrify and intrigue at the same time. Unlike most cards in the deck, which look like portraits of living creatures, this one is two-dimensional. It looks like layers of fraying paper that form a face that reminds me of childhood nightmares.

The trick to understanding this card is that fear isn’t real. We construct fear, piling up layer and layer of insecurity and uncertainity until we create a monster that blocks us from doing what we want. When we peel back the layers, we learn that there is no fear. It has no substance. It doesn’t exist.

Yesterday’s post is an example of this false monster. I created it out of words, out of worry that I’d forgotten how to write, that I’d lost the tail of the story, that the habit of not writing had become too ingrained.

Then this morning I got up and went down to the local bar for a coffee and a writing session.

And guess what?

The fear (of course) was unfounded. I wrote over 1100 words on the novel, words that I liked and add to the plot, characterization and theme of the book. I blew away the paper-thin fear with the speed of my fingers on the keyboard, with the flow of ideas and with the security of my skill as a writer.

Now I have a question for you…

What insubstantial fear are you letting stop you from doing what you want?

 
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Posted by on September 20, 2012 in Am Writing

 

Restarting the Engine (sort of…)

It’s been nearly two months since I have written anything. The first month without writing was intentional. I was on holiday and I don’t write when I’m on holiday. The second month wasn’t meant to be writing-free. I was back at work so I should have been back to writing.

But my husband had his gallbladder out. I was working long hours. My energy and creativity were pointed inother directions…

Blah, blah, blah.

The truth is I didn’t write because I didn’t feel like it.

And I still don’t feel like it, which is an odd thing. I tell everyone I’m a writer. I (usually) love the finished product when I do write and yet if I can come up with a half-believable excuse to avoid writing, I latch onto it and spend my free time playing Bubble Witch Saga, reading, or staring at the ceiling.

This morning I considered posting something in the online writers’ forum I belong to, asking for tricks to get myself writing again, but that would have been just another excuse. There is only one way to do it…

I have to write.

No tricks, no plans, no rewards sometime in the future.

I have to write today if I want to finish anything tomorrow.

And this is where my toddler/teenager self starts screaming “No!!!!!!!! I don’t have to do anything. You can’t tell me what to do!”

So, I am going to try an experiment. Instead of telling myself I have to write, I am going to say “I want to write.” or “I will write.” and see how that works.

(But first I’ll play a few rounds of Bubble Witch, just to ease myself into it.)

 
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Posted by on September 19, 2012 in General Babblery